Week 29: Bed bound.

The start of this week has left me bed bound, Christmas came and went and was one of the most enjoyable yet. Although hospital has led me to believe a man can become sick in a different way, I believe it has done me some good to be alone. I have had time to do a lot of thinking and a lot of sleeping. Sleep, is of course the origin of thought and the cauldron from which it imagination is poured into reality. I am almost recovered but still, after going through an excruciating amount of pain, I feel a totally contrary feeling to that of recovery, I feel new.

All yours.
Dan.



This is a picture from a set, if I could I would post the entire set, but I have already made the promise to myself that I will only post one picture per week. The idea of this set, is that you (as the audience) must capture your own imagination through expression of others. I purposely chose the people closest to me in this shoot, the people I feel I have utterly connected with over the years, to get a much more rounded result for my own satisfaction.

Song listening to right now: I Will Follow Him - Dusty Springfield

Week 28: Perception II.

This week's blog will contain very little text so that this image can be perceived in your own way. I feel the image deserves this attitude.

D.



Concentrate on the angle of the bars and their origin.

Song listening to right now: Visions of Johanna - Bob Dylan

Week 27: Form.

If we were to think of our lives as a solid and unmovable we would be see a better way of living. It would not be a perfect mindset, but would you call your current view on living perfect? I never wish to push my views on the audience of my photographs, but I'd people to see certain views I've been thinking about of late. I have felt that this week has been a string with blurred events that have no sort of connection to my intended goal, however I believe rest is important. Leading a solid life can be stressful and tiring but if we are moved away from the idea of routine, this concept of form, we can easily become broken. Luckily I do not believe in a strict routine or schedule. I don't have this idea of keeping solid with no bends in the middle. I create my own frame, my own series to keep me in place. I am a complete improvisation of what is complete and what is in progress.

Thanks for your time.
Dan.




This photograph is brutally formal and is quite hard to look at for a while. It expresses the coldness of architecture and does not allow us to flow. It does not allow any of the leeway that is attached to an improvised life. The photograph is routine. This is form.

Song listening to right now: The Wretched - Nine Inch Nails

Week 26: Difference.

This week I thought I would show a different side of me at university. I cannot help but think this was a mistake, and also it controlled my actions when researching my project and essay. A lot of work in a small amount of time results in staying awake over a long period of time. I feel different, but not for the worse. I have a recurring idea in my mind that reminds me to work to my full potential. I have realised an inalienable truth though, it is impossible to exceed one's potential. Completely impossible.

Daniel.



This photograph is a little different to my other work I have posted on the blog, this is mainly because I have a different mindset right now. Although I feel completely stressed out, I like my attitude towards the work. I used to have an obsession with staircases. This was taken in Nice, France. I spent a while standing there to compose this photograph. Take from it what you will.

Song listening to right now: Peter Gunn Theme - Emerson Lake and Palmer

Week 25: Home.

How can somebody be completely blinded by their own perception? When we enter a building for the first time, the viewing will be completely different from the 30th time. This week has lead me to believe that I have been misguided by my thoughts of my habitat. I live in a house, but I do not see it as being home. Nottingham is not my home, Reading is my home. However, after living in Nottingham (without going back) for about two months has made me see this house in a completely different light. Right this second, I am sitting in the living room whilst all my housemates are either asleep or away. I don't feel lonely. I feel lonely only when the room is full of people that (now that I realise it) have only been my friends for a short while. Don't get me wrong, I live with some fantastic people, who I am happy to share a house with and who I can genuinely call my friends. The thing is, I get this rushed feeling of paranoia sometimes that makes me jump and cringe, I can not live up to the social standards that are asked of me. I was recently asked not to disagree with someone, by that someone himself. How can one person dictate to me what I am allowed to disagree with? That is why this is not home.

Dan.




This, however, is home. At the time of taking this photograph, it didn't feel like home, neither did it suit the situation I was in at the time, but I believe it really shows this feeling of being isolated. The pillars could represent the people around me constantly trying to support each other. Then there is just me, reflecting in my own paranoia and suspended by my own disbelief, feeling trapped by certain people who surround me. I'd like to add that there are people here who act as pillars for me, and I'd like to thank them for doing everything they can to make me comfortable.

Song listening to right now: Glorious - Andreas Johnson

Week 24: Ignorance.

This week has made me want to change, but I see it as being a huge challenge. I feel my problems put me outside certain groups of people, even though they may not realise I am a certain way.

Anyway, thanks for reading.

Daniel.



This is obviously an extreme version of how I am feeling and a totally different situation, literally. However, emotionally it links in quite well with the way I feel. It is quite a coincidence as this image was not my idea.

This was taken for Richard Cooper's theatre design project, he approached me and asked to capture this image. The concept and design for it was completely his brainchild, I just did the technical stuff. I felt it reflected my emotional state. Thanks Rich.

Song listening to right now: Juliet - Army of Freshman

Week 23: Commitment.

This week has kept me on my toes. I've been constantly working myself to death with this project and quite literally, it has had it's ups and downs. I won't spoil it for you, but it involves a lot of tripod action. This physical frustration tests my threshold of self patience, and I anger myself to the point where I must leave the room and come back to it with an open mind; and so it is with this that my anxiety compels me to gain experience, it takes over my mind with what I perceive as knowledge, but actually practice in the form of photography. The relaxation is the real activator of my potential, and as I sit back and let it wash through me, it gives me a sense of dedication. This may seem like "meandering chatter" but I feel as though I should explain, in the clearest way possible, why I put myself through this.

Thank you for reading.
Dan.




Once again another self portrait. This isn't a narcissistic thing, I just wish to explore myself. Actually, on second thought, it may be a vanity thing, I'm not sure yet but I will find out once I have explored enough. Taken on a Hasselblad 503, with 120 Fujifilm Reala film, ISO 100.

Song listening to right now: Brain Damage - Pink Floyd