Saturday, 28 July 2012

Week 157: Meeting.

People meet new people all the time, it happens all day every day. Every now and again you meet someone that really affects you. Someone that really seems to know you well before you even have a chance to get to know each other. It's a good feeling, friendship without history, because you know when that history builds up it can only get better. You get to know more about that person than you already do. The little things make you smile. Friends are probably my most favourite thing about life. I'm happy I've met some people recently, they've changed me for the better. They've been reliable. Yet, there are some friends that I've known a lot longer, that I thought I knew, when I completely didn't. There are some people that are meant to be there for you when you need them the most, that have said they would be there for you. I have been there for these people, I've stuck up for them when they are being unfairly treated. I have been there for late night phone calls when they were crying themselves to sleep at night. I have travelled a long way to see them just to put a smile on their face. I don't do this for anything in return apart from the knowledge that when I need them to be my friend, they will actually be there for me, just like they said they would.

Apart from that, I've met some great people recently. Some in particular know who they are if they are reading this. I know that when I am at my lowest point or need a friend, I can count on them. Even if it is just a phone call about silly things. It's the small things that count, it's the small things that make me laugh and fill me with joy. I just believe they deserve a big thank you for making my cheeks hurt and providing me with the fun I need. These feelings are natural. I've got a lot of time for you.


You may think this is a pretty strange photograph to post but I feel it's a pretty relevant visual analogy.

Song listening to right now: Set Phasers to Stun - Taking Back Sunday

Wednesday, 25 July 2012

Week 156: Impulse.

Use your inner impulse. Go and do something out of the blue, be bloody spontaneous. The dogmatic view of most people's routine these days is "work, sleep, get drunk" in a few different arrangements. Don't fall into that. Don't be an idiot. Go and do something ridiculous, just follow your heart and be loyal to the path it tells you to lead. It's the only way to happiness.


Just go out and do it. If you can find someone who will come with you, even better.

Song listening to right now: Body in a Box - City and Colour

Wednesday, 18 July 2012

Week 155: Companionship.

There is always someone you just know will stick by you and be a loyal friend no matter what. They will go through anything with you, whether it's heartbreak, love, war or the end of the world. They will be your companion and not let you down. However, when you are that person for someone else and the feeling is not mutual, then it can really tear you apart. Sometimes companionship and loyalty can hurt, so it's best not to put too much devotion into a friendship unless you are sure they will be there to catch you when you fall.


"Friends come and go but for the precious few, you should hold on."

This was taken in Israel. It shows a couple of female soldiers, that are experiencing war together. They are going through it together as friends. I didn't get a chance to get to know them, but for some reason by their body language you could just tell that they were good friends, fighting for what they believe in, side by side.

Song listening to right now: Death of Me - City and Colour

Wednesday, 11 July 2012

Week 154: Faith.

From this week onwards I'm going to focus on putting my faith into me. I've put my faith into so much throughout my life, it's exhausting and hasn't got me anywhere. The only time I've actually got anywhere with anything it has been when I've concentrated all my faith and belief into what I can do and how I can effect my life. I have faith in my friends and those who support me, I always will, but I've ignored fueling myself for a while now. Friendships are confusing. You can know somebody your whole life and feel like they don't know you at all, then suddenly you could meet someone who just knows you from the get go. Just because they haven't been there as long as others doesn't mean they won't be there for a majority of the future. This is why I feel if I can just promote myself and work hard, dedicating myself to myself, I will become a lot more succesful. I will keep the faith with the people that come and go in my life but I just need to take a chunk and feed it to my own self esteem.

If you feel like you've given a lot more than you've received. If you feel like you've been a nice person and all you are getting is people saying horrid things to you. If you know that you've been a good friend, stood up for and given fully motivated support to people, yet you don't get anything in return then just stop and think. Don't give up doing all of that for other people, never give that up, it's who you are. Just think though, if you did all of that and also gave it all to yourself at the same time then you are more likely to just carry on when people let you down. Keep yourself motivated on your dreams, inspirations and final locations. Don't try and help someone else live their dream for them, don't help them when they fail on their dreams. That is their problem. It's good to be selfish when it comes to ambitions. It's even better to be selfish when you are on your way to reaching that goal. Help other people out when you can, but don't ever expect anything in return, because when all is said and done they never asked for you to be that loving, supportive and caring character. You gave and they took.

Thanks for reading this week.


Do not get me wrong, this blog post is not a negative one. I'm not giving up on getting to know people or anything like that. I'm not giving up on supporting friends and meeting new people. I'm not giving up on true friendships and those people that really matter in life. I'm not like that and never will be. I've met some people recently that have genuinely changed my life for the better. They've got me through hard times and they know that I'd be there in a flash for them. This blog post is for those who refuse to do the same for me. This blog post is for all the people I've tried to help, put up with them being completely horrible to me. I'm not trying to be ambiguous or damning. I just feel it's appropriate to express my feelings through a passage of text and an image that suits the emotions at this point in time. This is what I've been doing for over three years now. I won't stop and I certainly won't apologise for never stopping. Thank you to those who have listened to me and those who have also opened up to me. Mutual feelings shared are mutual feelings gained. I've always believed that.

Song listening to right now: Fast Car - Tracy Chapman