Sunday, 20 February 2011

Week 88: Conformity.

What do you conform to? Everybody conforms to something. Everyone has to have something to strap their lifestyle to. I have been thinking constantly about what people want to pin their lives to, the rules, the regulations and the practice. My highest conformity is probably my passionate aim to make images that make people think. I make them on medium and large format film so I guess I conform to the rules of shooting film exposures. I do however, conform to certain fashions, rules of polite discourse and conversation with acquintances. It's good to know all of this about yourself, otherwise it can slip your mind and you get lost in what is right and what is wrong in a specific situation. I enjoy conformity.


As you may know, I have a fascination with the androgynous. Some women can get away with wearing men's clothing, and some men can do the same with women's. However, the latter is not as common. Recently there has been a real push in the fashion industry to mix gender stereotypes and I'm sure most of you that read fashion magazines have noticed. This is all about conformity, sexual conformity and orientation. For example, what do straight men and women have to fashionably conform to and also what do gays have to fashionably conform to? Debate's like this are hardly contemporary and have existed for years. It just makes a surge into the commercial industry every now and again.

Song listening to right now: The Grotesque - Johnny Truant

Sunday, 13 February 2011

Week 87: Belief.

The word "faith" is too strong to describe my emotions at the moment. It does not exist in the human brain so therefore I will relinquish all use of the word. Instead I wish to focus on "belief", this word is a lot less abstract and much more real. To believe something is to put trust in something, and trust exists. Belief is made up of the truth and the lie. So consequently it is conjured from what is real and what is make believe.

The reason I'm focusing on this is that I have a lot going on at the moment, I've become a busy person. Everyone has their own issues and I understand that, which is why I'm writing this blog in a way that can relate to the reader's problems as well as mine. I'm trying my hardest to get everything done and commit to my top priorities. However, I seem to have a number of priorities on the same level. Well, at least I believe they are on the same level. These priorities are people as well as activities and people have different beliefs. So I have to compensate for what they believe should be my number one priority at the moment. I think this is slightly selfish of certain people to dictate what my priorities should be, especially if it is putting themselves on top. However, this is not always a bad thing, in fact I feel quite flattered when that happens to be honest and I appreciate if it actually works out for the best. So I believe I can get everything done, I believe I can sort out my life into categories that exchange roles in my everyday trivial activities but I also believe that I have to give myself time to do this.

Time is something you cannot buy. However, if you could purchase it... then it wouldn't matter because I'm pretty broke anyway.


Working hard is one thing but believe you are working hard is another. Put your efforts into perspective, compare it with others. No matter what you think, inspiration is all around you and if you observe somebody that is working a lot harder than you are then you will obtain a drive. At first it may seem depressing and it may get you down. Once you learn to harness this influence you can use it to create targets for yourself and your self belief will rise to standards you never knew you had. Work until your brain sweats.

Song listening to right now: The Bloodening - Johnny Truant

Wednesday, 9 February 2011

Week 86: Amusement.

Laughter seems to shock. I find something amusing if I truly understand it, if I don't understand it then normally I won't laugh, however if you ever see me laughing at something I do not understand it will completely prosthetic. I understand when somebody laughs at me, so I laugh back at them and it does not seem to shock anyone, but if I were to stay silent, it would cause judgemental side effects that the other party may find offensive. In a true sense, if I haven't laughed back it is because I found your laughter offensive. Amusement is a very fine discourse and it is only because of practice that we know the rules and regulations of it by heart.

Thank you for reading this week.

In the photograph (in general, not this one in particular), there is only silence. Laughter does not exist, sadness does not exist. There is no such thing emitted from the 2D.

Song listening to right now: The Disappointment - Devil Sold His Soul